STILL CONCERNED ABOUT HEALTH AND PHYSICAL FITNESS
My weight has crept up over the years. My eating has been abysmal at times and my physical strength and fitness is non existent. I've made an effort from time to time but somehow have lost ground and incentive.
My 80th birthday is weeks away and there have been too many major changes and a few devastating events over the last few years. I feel as though I completely lost the plot when it came to caring for me. Losing John last year, 10 months ago, has been a huge adjustment.
I decided right from the start to treat this change as an adventure. Easier said than done.
Slowly I'm beginning to find my own feet and learning to live as a single person. I knew that it wouldn't be easy and my age would probably complicate the energy, (mental, emotional and physical), left to put into this new phase.
Recently I've been eating better. I've stopped drinking Nestle Cappuccinos. They are evil and actually make me quite unwell but so tempting. I often crave one but there are none in the house and I've resisted buying anymore this month. I have also stopped buying bread. I thought I could get away with some but the reality is I also crave it and can eat many slices a day. I just love a sandwich made with Vogel sunflower seed bread slathered generously with butter and filled with thick ham, loads of crunchy iceberg lettuce and mayo. Very satisfying but it also kept feeding my addiction and the offshoot symptoms I get from eating too much wheat.
I guess it's back to a ketogenic diet for me. That's when I felt at my best but it's not all that easy to stay true. I've ordered a new blood testing kit with strips. It should arrive in the next few days. In the meantime I'm back on a morning routine of Keto coffee with cream and coconut oil. Brunch is a mainly nuts mixture with plain Greek yoghurt. I play a bit fast and loose with the nut mixture. I toast a mix of nuts, pumpkin and sunflower seeds. Then I add in a little dried fruit, maybe cranberry or apricots and sometimes a pkt of Hubbards granola... just as the mood takes me. We usually have dinner together, meaning Amanda, Wayne, and Ava. We take turns at cooking and are all trying to make our dinner healthier and cut out takeaway. We have fallen into some very bad habits. Last year was quite difficult in some ways. We missed John in so many ways. It's only as we look back that we realise how much his death affected us and far more than we could have imagined. Grief proved to be a strange thing.
Wayne and Amanda's property business suddenly took of with a bang. They were well prepared but it's still been a huge learning curve. Ava-Jane is growing up. She's now 4 years and 4 months. Today I had charge for most of the day and we did some sewing. I gave her needle and thread and showed her how to make stitches. She wanted to make a shoe.for one of her dolls. It turned out to be a very strange thing but then I had no idea how to achieve her goal either. Next time I'll help her make something that actually works.
I have Noooo energy. It's a real nuisance. Generally I think my health is OK. I take medication for high blood pressure and sometimes indigestion but that's about it. All I'm really good for is a little pottering and I mean little, and sitting and sewing, watching TV and playing solitaire or doing on line sudoku. I talk about walking but even going to the gate for mail feels like too much effort. How ridiculous is that.
Because this frightens me I am setting up a plan. I don't know how I'm going to follow through and make it work. I don't know where I'm going to get the will to make the effort required but I know that age is not an excuse to do nothing, I've tried that but I know it's a lie and doesn't sit well with me.
Current weight - around 97 kg.
Current number of daily steps - less than 500
Exercycle - 0
Goal for March 15 - 22
Weight - less than 96 kg
Daily Steps - 500 plus
Daily Exercycle - 10 min.
Lets see if this attempt to get my life together takes or is nothing more than I flash in the pan.
Lowest recorded weight since I decided to be mainly wheat free and even nutritional ketosis appears to be:-
81 kg in September 2013
Obviously I did not maintain the lifestyle necessary to maintain this change. On the positive side I have rarely gone over 100 kg over this 5.5 year period.
